[Exotica]
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
♠ 3:19 AM
Love Reflection.

Speaking of love. Well i gotta say, it has been a rough ride for me these past few days. haven been in a good mood or should i say in a situation filled with mixed emotions. It wasnt exactly an emo thing. Its more like a self reflection of why i seem to not be able to be frens with cupid who i always and constantly admire ( ONLY FROM FAR ) lol. it seems that my endless pursues in love keep getting further from me than i could possibly hope for. I always wondered am i really that bad? as in i look around me. Ppl get attached just like that -piak- U noe LIKE THAT? haha

I just dont get it.

Is it cos i am not THAT MAN ENOUGH? OR not that CUTE? I got FACE what! not that flawless skin la but so? I can go IPL or STEM CELL FACIAL!.. i dont look like donkey or whale. I dont suffer from elephantasis or something. I am so much nicer than last time. someone pls tell me. I am willing to change ppl! Is it cos i must be bad to make an impact?

This whole obsession with love becomes like an intricating web of mysteries filled with endless clues that lead to nowhere. Its like a genre on its own and i am just the only cast with a script full of satires and metaphors for me to decipher. its exhausting but as an Aries, the more i cant get, the more i will pursue. and thats bad.

You noe sometimes you just noe that things are bad and u just smile because u think things will actually change but in fact it does not? i guess that smile is all a facade to hide what i really feel, that i should just leave for good. hmm.. i ponder...

I totally blame myself for not being perfect, not even close to being what i thought i am. I blame myself for being unable to convey a positive love attitude towards ppl i like. I guess its all boils down to just me and me. And its a total situation of me against me. I guess i need some time to find out what i should improve on. But i do learn that being nice is definitely not that important a factor when comes to love.

After much deep musing and passing each days trying to figure out an answer, i have decided to retreat, not so much give up. I am not giving up life la! haha

I just sort of realised Carrie Bradshaw was right all along, in life there are no safety net. And when u fall so hard, there is never a guarantee that person would be there to catch u. Its true. I completely comprehend. Yes i should not be staying there too long just to find out how NOT GOOD the situation is.

So smile Benji, cos tomorrow will be worse. There goes stupid Murphy's law. hate him but he is so true sometimes. HA!

Foreplay
THIS IS THE BOY THAT IS.....
 
-Open Minded, provocative and Different
-Always RIGHT whether at work, home or in BED
- PAnsexual right now.. Aka.. everything also can..
- hoping for the best everyday over ice cream
- really hoping someone would take me serious for once
- really too complex to comprehend.
- having the WORST sex LIFE AND DRIVE EVER! which his fren Yang said with much gusto: " the ONLY SEX U  HAVE IS WHEN U SHIT! ".. hahaha..

So given his really pathetic state in the love department, his only hope is therefore to sit and fart and hope that it can generate enough electricity for the entire Simei district.

Okay it was just a joke.. chill..

Still Foreplay

10 Seconds of Fame..

What is aaaaaaaaabbbbbbbbbbbbbbAAAAAAAAAAAAAA?

Ans: Long time no C

Lame..yes i know tt....

Cunnilingus

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